~Happy Birthday to You~

22 April 2011 – arinie bday die..u know who u are J die nie sgt special dlm idup aku..kitorg fes time jmpe lebey kurang 4 thn dlu..then many things happened and we suddenly been together..yes I use the word suddenly..sbb mase awal2 aku jmpe die dlu aku xpnh trpikir pn yg kitorg akn end up mcm nie..yela soal idup mati jodoh pertermuan kn sume ALLAH je yg tau..aku xpnh cari apetah lg mengejar cinta..i just leave it to ALLAH..n im glad ALLAH send him to me..the way we started our journey seriously xromantic lgsg..not a love story yg mane2 couple impikan pn..mntk dijauhkn lg adela..haha..but it happened! Cinta sejati xmudah utk dimiliki kn..a lot of trust n a bunch of sacrifice needed..we just go with the flow and Alhamdulillah we made it until today <3

Okeyy lets talk about bday boy pulak..hehe..die sorg hamba ALLAH yg baik..sorg ank yg soleh..sorg adik n abg yg brtgjwb..sorg kwn yg pemurah n sorg kekasih hati yg sgt memahami plus romantic!!! Again im really glad we met..almost 3 yrs nie da terlalu byk yg die buat utk aku..aku sndri pn belum tentu akn buat ape yg die buat..antara ny he always plan sumthing great on my bday..snggup dtg from johor to celebrate..bli kek byk2 sbb aku ske mkn kek..bli adiah yg aku ske gle2..n mcm2 lg..thank you sooo much! hehehe..die snggup bwk aku merata2 semata2 nk memenuhi nafsu mkn aku yg melampau tiap2 kali tension..sggup tmn aku on call mlm2 even tho aku tau msti ade org pkir *xyah la smpai on call pn nk tmn jgk* but that’s the way he shows his support n care..die bkn jenis yg sng nk ckp ‘I love u’..die mmg xpndai nk express sume tu dri kate2 so die tunjukkn dgn perbuatan..dlu aku ske suro die nyanyi utk aku tp of course laa die xnk..haha..but then lately die suke la jgk nyanyi by phone..tp yg sengal ny aku lak yg xnk dgr..sbb die ske nyanyi main2..so dri sdp trus jd xsdp tau..huhu..kalo gado pulak die ske pujuk aku mcm pjuk bdk2..die akn bli kn pape je yg aku ske..plg slalu mstila kek! Hehe..lain2 cm kenny rogers ke..durian ke purse ke papejela bende yg aku plg ngidam waktu tu..then die dtg umah bunyikan loceng n tgglkn pe yg die nk bg kt luar..bkk pntu ade bende yg ko ske!! Kn best tu..so slalu ny kalo die wat cmtu msti aku ilang mrh trus..sbb perut aku kenyang kot..hahaha..byk lg perkara2 menarik n menyentuh hati yg die pnah wat tp xlarat la plak nk tls kt cni kn..ade 1 prkara yg aku sgt2 terharu is ble die bce kn doa or ayat al-Quran by phone time aku tgh sedih yg melampau..dgr suara die bace mmg tersentuh beb..meleleh air mate..sejuk rase hati..waktu tu mmg aku sgt2 berterima kasih pd Tuhan sbb hantar die utk aku..thank you ALLAH J waktu lain yg die ske bce kn doa is b4 tdo..tp lately nie da jarang da sbb die slalu TERtdo dlu..pnat la katekn clinical yr nie..xpela org bce sndri ekh..hee

For ur bday today…org doakan die panjang umur..murah rezeki..n dapat capai sume cita2 die..semoga urusan die dipermudahkn n dimurahkan rezeki oleh ALLAH s.w.t…teruskan jd insan yg berguna n bermakna utk org sekeliling..semoga jd hamba yg mulia disisi ALLAH n sentisa mndapat rahmat-NYA..hopefully ALLAH dgr doa2 kte n makbulkn hajat2 kte..aminnn

I love you…always n forever…insyaALLAH

"i am okey"

i thought i will be just fine but no i am not!!
why? why me?? i am totally not okeyy!
all the smiles..the laughter..the word saying 'aku okey'
it is all fake!
my heart burning inside
my eyes cant stop crying
my mind always thinking

urghhhhh i cant take this dear ALLAH
astaghfirullahalazim~
tabahkn hati..kuatkan semangat

11/4/2011 --> after result

11/4/2011 --> maka result sem II pn kuar..aku tggu dri kol 4.30 ptg but then result come out at 7pm..lame kn aku tggu..punye la smgt nk tgk result n nk tgk sndri punye psl..xnk org len tgkkn..xpuas okeyy! result hmmm..sem I dlu aku da fail JKM..so utk sem II nie aku leh fail at least 1 posting je..kalo x mmg xnek 4th year laa aku..tp of course laa kalo boley aku xnk fail pape lg da..huhu..first thing yg aku tgk ble abang tu tampal result is aku kne repeat year ke x??? berkeliaran mata aku cri no matric aku..TAKDE!! Alhamdulillah..time tu mmg aku da relief sbb tu laa bende yg plg aku tkt time tu..

then aku carik lg no matric aku..cari punye cari last2 bru jmpe..no aku lastttt skali..ade 2 kod..so makne ny aku ade fail lg 1 antara surgery or OnG slain jkm yg aku smemang ny da fail tu..tgk kode kursus FFFF3128 aka surgery!! huhu..so makne ny aku kne reseat 2 paper which is surgery n jkm..sdey mmg sdey..mane de medical student yg nk fail..tp nk wat cmne..rezeki masing2..aku sgt bersyukur time nie sbb aku dpt 2nd chance utk tambah sume yg kurang..utk betulkn mane yg slh..utk baiki sume yg perlu n semestiny utk jd yg lbey baik..

btw dua2 posting yg aku kne reseat nie mmg rare..rare mksud ny org lain lg rmai fail posting yg lg ssh compare to 2 posting nie..haha sengal kn..tp alhamdulillah sbb dua2 posting nie xberat sgt..so xdela mmbebankan aku sgt..tu yg mmbuatkn aku cool sket kot..ade gak aku pkir nape la kne fail jgk surgery tu..org len leh je lulus..huhuhu..tp aku de teringt after abes paper theory surgery *teruk gak aku wat paper tu* aku de ckp cmni "kalo la aku leh ulang blk wat paper tu msti aku akn jwb btol"..hmm mmg aku ade terdetik ckp cmni..so paham2 la kan..hehe..

aku redha je..pasrah abes da nie..nanges tu xyah ckp la..MESTI! ape yg pasti aku kne focus btol2 time reseat..aku kne pastikn yg aku akn nek 4th year ngan kwn2 aku yg da berjaya tu..aku doa sgt2 supaya aku kuat n xcpt putus asa..aku da usaha..aku xmen2 okey..aku xpnah men2 ble blajar..nie cita2 aku..nie impian aku..nie harapan mak ayah aku..aku cuma harap org2 sekeliling aku yg dkt ngan aku yg tau ssh sng aku blaja medic nie phm ape yg aku rase..bg smgt pd aku..n doakn yg terbaik utk aku..tu je..xbyk kn aku mntak..hee

so dikesempatan nie aku nk wish CONGRATULATIONS to my love one Ahmad Muhaymin b Mohd Othman sbb lulus sume posting!!! u deserve it..fine org kalah dis year..kasik can dlu..hee..thnx for comforting me..always there to be my listener..support me n never let me feel alone..really appreciate n love u so much syg..doakn ill be joining u msk 4th year tauuu <3

okeyy la..ckup la tu mlm nie..xlarat da nk merepek..haha..skang nie aku xtau nk watpe..jadual utk reseat xde lg so hmmm..papejela..tdo lg bgus..nite2 :))

post exam ;P

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...lame da rase ny aku x merapu kt blog nie..byk nk ngadu tp mls nk tls..huhu..so currently aku bru je abes final exam 3rd year..biase la ade yg susah ade yg senang..1st paper aku theory surgery..ade 20 soklan OBA, 10 soklan EMI n 5 soklan KFQ..OBA cm biase la..soklan sng ke ssh ke ttp xkn tau mane stu jwpn yg btol..doctor yg wat soklan tu je yg tau..so aku jwb jela based on ape yg aku bce..boley la kot but stil ade yg xtau siap tau da yg mane yg salah..hohoho..soklan EMI sgt confusing..xmustahil kalo aku jz btol 2-3 soklan je..ssh okeyy n otak aku pn da xleh nk bezakn soklan2 yg hampir same je sume ny tu..huhuhu..then KFQ okey laa..boley la wat but still ade soklan yg aku xtau diagnosis..so ble da xtau diagnosis tu cmne nk tau investigation management sume???

hmmmm..nx paper aku theory OnG..better than surgery..soklan die agak sng..tp xtau la jwpn aku tu same ngan jwpn doctor ke x..harap2 same la..aminnn..abes 2 paper theory dpt la rehat sehari..*xrehat pn okeyyy*..prepare utk osce OnG pulak..aku sgt3 tkt osce OnG nie sbb aritu time short case aku performe sgt3 xbgus..so osce nie teramatlah memerlukan aku utk perform gle2 bgus ny utk cover blk marks ble da cmpur ngan short case tu nnt..aku fes group..start around 9am cmtu la..ade 6 station OnG n 1 station PPD..mase 5 MINIT SAHAJA..time nie aku ade la rase xfair sket sbb group sblm nie diorg ny mase 7 minit..2 minit tu sgt bermakne okeyyy..ermm tp xpela..dugaan..to be a better doctor perhaps...sepanjang osce nie mmg aku trigger otak gle2 utk pkir dgn cpt n memaksa tgn aku utk tls dgn laju..ade 1 station yg aku sgt2 terkilan sbb slh diagnosis..da bunyi loceng bru aku pasan 1 statement kt soklan yg boley ubah diagnosis aku..tp da xsmpat so aku redha jela ngan kesilapan sndri yg xbce soklan btol2..*nk cpt sgt tkt xckup mase*..huhuhu..so overall aku boley la buat but that was not the best i can..boley wat much better..papepun aku sgt2 berharap doctor2 yg tanda paper aku tu leh la terima sume jwpn aku n bg markah terbaik utk aku..amin insyaALLAH..

then my last paper was on moday 4th April..osce surgery..time nie aku 1st group..start around 9.30 am cmtu..ade 8 stations surgery..2 rest n 1 PPD..ade 3 man station..aku sgt xske man station time osce sbb tkt xsmpt or tkt blurr or tkt dpt doctor yg strict or papejela..haha..pe yg tkt tu jd kenyataan jgk laa..1st station aku kne amek history then examiner ny Mr A***..leh thn strict la kot doctor nie..mule2 mmg cuak tp last2 da xde rase pe da..haha..then ade 1 station kne wat breast examination..examiner ny jeng3...Prof N****A..prof nie mmg specialist in breast n endocrine so of course la die sgt strict..kne jgk la time2 ade slh tu,.tp okey la kot..ntoh..then time PPD lak kne examine by Dr R****A..doctor nie specialist OnG sbena ny..dlm hati apsal la aku asyik dpt doctor2 yg leh thn killer nie..hohoho..tp xpe aku tau doctor2 sume baik hati..kan kan kan..hehe..

skang mmg da xleh watpe slain doa n tawakkal..aku sgt3 tkt kalo *nauzubillah* aku TERPAKSA ulang thn sbb fail exam..tu je yg aku asyik pkir..papepun aku da usaha..aku tau aku xbuat sehabis baik pn time exam..byk lg ilmu dlm otak nie yg xdikeluarkn..kadang2 mmg rase dri sndri bodoh ble xtau or jwb slh time exam..esp utk bende2 yg mmg aku da bce gle2..tp pkir2 blk..ble xtau la bru aku tau pe yg aku ptt tau n ble da wat slh la bru aku tau pe yg perlu dibetulkn..sooo senang cte sume bende yg jd ade hikmah ny..skang nie aku hanye mampu berserah..mengharapkan yg terbaik dari-NYA..aku sgt suke maksud ayat nie~

"Cukuplah ALLAH bagiku, tidak ada Tuha selain DIA. Hanya kepada-NYA aku bertawakkal dan DIA adalah Tuhan yang memiliki 'Arsy yang agung"

[surah at-Taubah ayat 129]

sume ny hanya dengan izin ALLAH..insyaALLAH~
ckup la utk mlm nie..da dpt result nnt aku update lg..doakanla aku LULUS ekh..aminnn :))