i fail

16 November 2010 >> result da kuar n yes i fail..i think i dun like it at all..sape pulak la kt dunia nie suke fail kn..kalo ade yg ckp xkesah pn die tipu je tu..huhu..83 out of about 260 students was failed at least one of the posting..including me..aku fail JKM or name lain ny perubatan masyarakat..5 org je fail posting nie termasukla aku..sedey?? SUMPAH sedey! xtau la cmne aku leh fail posting nie..pnat da aku nanges sepanjang hari..smpai sakit2 da pale sbb byk sgt nanges..nape mesti fail??? only ALLAH knows..meirah said ALLAH adlh sebaik2 perancang..yes i agreed!

td result kuar around 1230 pm kot..xpasti..sape yg lulus name die akn ditampal n yg fail only tampal matric number..privacy la konon ny..im searching for my name..read one by one smbl dlm hati brdoa cptla muncul nama aku..from top till the end of da list..i cant find my name! (mase nie Tuhan je la tau cmne prasaan aku) aku ulang lg..mane tau terskip..tp kalo da mmg xde tu tgk seratus kali pn xkn ade jgk..then aku trus tgk senarai yg fail..mata aku trus trnmpk matric number yg familiar..number 80 G74624..komfem matric number aku n yes aku fail JKM..lame aku tgk..byk kali aku tgk..xckup mata sndri aku pnjam mata org lain suro tgkkn btol x aku fail JKM tu..yela org lain plg2 pn fail medicine tp aku JKM..hmm ntah...xtau pe mslh aku..yg pntg aku mmg fail n ttp kne re-seat paper..huhuhu

smpai skang aku still sedey..nanges smpai bengkak2 mata..xtau nape fail..byk aku pkir..Tuhan nk uji..may be sbb aku da lupe ape rase ny fail..mcm mane perasaan org2 yg fail..selama nie aku slalu bernasib baik..Tuhan da byk pinjamkn aku kejayaan..may be skang utk aku rase kegagalan pulak..hidup kn cm roda..xslama ny kte diatas..so xslama ny aku akn lulus kn..aku terima tu tp hati mane yg xsdey ble rmai kwn2 yg lain lulus..huhu..TAHNIAH for all my friends who PASS! esp my housemates..sorry kalau2 dlu time aku berjaya aku xsensitive ngan perasaan korg..may be skang Tuhan nk aku tau cmne perasaan tu..supaya sume org merasa

mase cari name aku kt list tu..aku nmpk nama Ahmad Muhaymin bin Mohd Othman..Alhamdulillah die lulus..happy sgt2! xsaba gle nk bgtau die..CONGRATS syg..da tau da die msti boley wat..he deserve victory..dlu aku slalu brjaya melebihi die..aku tau die sedey..aku slalu pujuk die ckp xpe..sume tu xpntg..yg pntg kte same2 tau n blaja ape yg ptt kte blaja..tp bru skang aku tau mcm mane prasaan die dlu..same mcm ape yg aku rase skang..atau mungkin lebey sbb die lelaki..hari nie die tau aku sedey..die tau betapa teruk aku akn sedey kalo aku fail..die ade ngan aku..pnjmkn sapu tgn utk lap air mata yg non stop kuar nie..blikn aku coklat..bwk aku jln2..hantar aku blk umah..msj n call aku slalu utk pastikn aku okeyy..he did well..die da wat yg termampu..jz aku yg lom boley terima kenyataan..thank you..i love u..hope after dis we will PASS n success together..so both will be happy n no one will be hurt..aminn

now i just hope dat i will recover soon..xterlalu down n xterlalu pkir kn bende nie..utk lupa tu mmg xkn terjadi..hope aku lbey bersemangt utk surgery n OnG..aku suke both posting! excited blaja..so harap2 fail JKM nie xmembunuh smngt aku..aku tau aku xkn hilang smgt..aku bukan org cmtu..just aku boley sedey utk mase yg lame n tu yg aku xnk..

feel better after wrote all this..have to stop crying now kalo x sembab la mate aku raye esok..huhu..mase utk tenangkn hati..tenangkn minda..kosongkn kepala n rehatkn mata

HAPPY AIDILADHA everyone~

from HOME~

hye2..im HOME! cuti sem..tp semggu je..huhu..so cuti sem means aku da brjaya abeskn 1 sem kt hukm nie..da abes 2 posting which is internal medicine n JKM..da abes je..lulus ke x tu lom tau lg..result will coming out on 12/11..yup dis FRIDAY! cuak mmg cuak..tp da xleh watpe..just leh doa n tawakal hopefully everything will goes well..aminnn~

ble cuti cm biase la..mmg aku boring xtau nk watpe..dok umah tdo mkn tgk tv..tu je yg aku tau..nk bce bku mmg jauh skali laa..haha..xpe2..nnt da nek sem bru focus blk okeyyy! hmm after nie aku posting surgery..xtau la cmne posting tu..yg aku tau doctor2 surgery ensem2 n baik2..tu aku dgr drpd bdk2 nie la..haha xde keje kn..

watever it is..aku nk focus n study btol2 pasni..*tiap kali lps exam msti wat azam bru tp hampeh jgk*..haha tp kali nie aku serious..serious jgk laa..learn from mistake..exam aritu xsusah sbena ny..IF aku btol2 blaja ape yg aku ptt blaja laa..im wasting time toooo much n xserious ble wat workshop..patutny aku leh master sume disease yg dibincangkn during workshop tp??? huhu my bad..

start from now on..ive plan..*b4 dis pn ade je plan tp slalu xmenjadi..hoho*..but now a serious plan! on my study..on my financial n of cause on my future as well..so i'll work out on my plan seriously..xmau separuh jln da..mesti smpai abes n msti smpai berhasil! ingat ye!!!

okeyyy that's it..xtau nk tls pe da..nk smbg marathon ANTM~tata
p/s: doakn i PASS both internal medicine n JKM posting plssss..huhu