~1 month~

28/12/11 - its already a month..you n me as husband n wife
im sooo glad we make it..Alhamdulillah~
until now i still cant imagine that i hve been married to you
only ALLAH knows how happy i am..this is what i always dream for
you hve been such a wonderful husband to me

thank you abg u never left me behind
thank you abg for always be my Imam for every prayer time
thank you abg tlg syg adapt ngan family abg
thank you abg for beeing sooo nice to my family
thank you abg tlg sidai n lipat kain
thank you abg slalu kms bilik
thank you abg pujuk syg ble merajuk
thank you abg for always giving me the best

and i always afraid that i am not good enough to you
sorry syg tak expert in cooking lagi
sorry if air yg syg buat xsedap
sorry if syg xiron bju abg cantik2
sorry kdg2 syg suke tdo lame2 n bgn lmbt
sorry kalo abg tension sbb syg bersiap lame sgt
sorry kalo syg suke merajuk n kalo syg ade wat abg marah
sorry abg i am not perfect....yet ;p

above all i love u abg..u hve been such a good husband to me..ingt lg abg gosokkn bju kurung mase syg merajuk..you allways full with surprise..;)
and still remember mase syg sakit perut dlm kete..u hold my hand along the way..hoping that u can ease the pain..abg guna satu tgn je pgg stereng + tukar gear..bahaya btol tapi syg suke ^^

I never stop pray to ALLAH for letting our LOVES to always grow n never faded
biar kekal sampai ke syurga~

Ohhh before it is tooooo late..i would like to Thank to ALL who direct or indirectly involves during my wedding day..of course especially to my PARENTS and all my relatives..I will always remember all your kindness..never forget!


p/s; Lets work hard n be a great doctors in the future ;)

~The Day~

Assalamualaikum..hyee;) lame da rase ny aku xmenulis..byk bende nk cte tp mls sgt nk type..berhabuk da blog nie..hee..many things happened recently..good bad all mix up..but da latest news of mine is...................IM GETTING MARRIED!! yeayyyyy opsss over excited pulak ;p

hmm masa sekolah dlu aku pnah cte ngan kengkawan aku..biase laa borak2 pasal kawen..aku de ckp aku nk kawen plg awal umo 23 n plg lmbt umo 27..so aku assume at least 24 or 25 laa..n dlu pn aku de ckp kalo de rezeki aku nk kawen time blajar..xtau la nape tp aku teringin sgt..yela idup nie skali je..selagi boley aku nk merasa n buat sume benda yg aku nk..kalo da grad bru kawen smpai bile2 la aku xkn merasa kawen n blaja at da same time..Alhamdulillah jodoh aku smpai awal n Allah dgr sume niat aku..syukur sgt..yela aku da pnah fail on my first love..so aku xnk da same thing happened again..after 3 years together we decided to get married..n again Alhamdulillah both our family agreed with that ;)

Marriage at dis early age plus im stil studying ofkos laa mesti ade je yg ckp awal lg laa..abes kn study dlu laa..but as for me..marriage n study are 2 different thing..xbest laa kalo idup nie asyik follow da flow je kn..kne la do sumthing different..bru laa interesting!! hehe..byk je reason why we decided to get married early..but above all yg plg utama is utk dpt berkat dri Allah..3 thn we couple..eat together..go movie together..shopping..byk sgt yg dibuat bersama..tmbh lg msj n call everyday..sume tu dosa..maksiat..tp utk xjmpe, xmsj, xcall hari2 pn aku xboley..yela cinta tu kn fitrah..sume org nk disayangi n menyayangi..tp kalo salah cara ny boley jdi fitnah..kitorg xnak laa mcm tu..xnak hubungan nie xdpt berkat Allah..huhu

Actually after 1 year being together aku da xsedap hati..rase mcm xbtol je ape yg aku buat..rupa ny die pn sama..since our study kt indon lg kitorg da pkir kearah nk kahwin nie..tp yela time tu mmg awal lg..muda lg..family pn xpnah jmpe lg..dua2 pn xde la matang sgt nk idup as husband n wife kn..tp bila da blk study kt hukm nie..we both getting more matured..our relationship pn da xmcm dlu..da makin matang..da boley pkir mane btol mane salah..mane elok mane xelok..xdela bercinta ala2 remaja da;p Then after a year kt hukm nie bru laa we both seriously think about marriage..yela aku xsuke sbena ny couple lame2 nie..rase mcm hbgn tu xde arah tuju..sume org pn ble da bercinta mestila ade cita2 nk berakhir ngan perkahwinan kan..xtau laa kalo ade org yg xpkir pasal tu..huhu..so after discussed about it we decided to talk to our parents n surprisingly our proposal was supported n accepted..happy sangat!

Bila da stuju mesti la kne cri waktu yg sesuai utk jmpe n bncg..yela family die kt johor..kitorg pulak sibuk ngan class so agak susah laa nk cri masa utk both family jmpe n bncg..selama nie pn pnah jmpe sekali dua je kt airport bile kitorg blk from indon time cuti..Alhamdulillah Tuhan sebaik2 perancang..Aidilfitri thn nie mmg ckup bermakna..family die dtg from johor utk beraya, berkenalan n merisik..hehe..after da bncg2 both family agreed to proceed with our engagement on Nov 2011 and our solemnization + reception will be held on January 2012..syukur;)

But later, unexpectedly, changes have been made..pnjg cte ny tp mls lak aku nk elaborate stu2 kt cni..to make it short, both our family have decided that our engagement, solemnization n reception will be held on Monday, 28 November 2011 (2 Muharram 1433H)..rmai jgk yg tanye nape wat isnin..cuti ke x time tu..plus selasa tu aku ade class..haha..mmg klakar..ble pkir blk xtau cmne nk g class a day after my BIG DAY..hee..iAllah 28/11 mmg cuti sbb ganti cuti Awal Muharram ahd tu..i like dis date..hari Isnin n awal Muharram lak tu..a very great time to start a new life isnt it?? semoga semuanya dipermudahkan...aminnn;)

So kira2 about a month from now i will be someone's wife..blurppp nervous tetibe..haha..preparation still stable now..lom kecoh2 lg..aku pn da xtau mende yg nk diprepare..bju nikah da ade..brg2 hantaran sume da abes bli..kad siap dis week..dewan meja kerusi da tempah..tggl nk tggu bju sanding siap n nk deco hantaran..kottt..hmmm..papepun i really2 hope everything will run smoothly n perfectly done as planned..iAllah~

"Ya Allah..permudahkanlah urusanku..permudahkanlah urusan ahli keluargaku..berkatilah urusan kami dan murahkanlah rezeki kami Ya Allah..izinkanlah segalanya berjalan dengan sempurna seperti yg telah kami rancang..jauhilah dari sebarang permasalahan dan perkara2 yg tidak diingini..sesungguhnya Ya Allah hanya kepadaMu kami bermohon dan berdoa..Engkaulah sebaik2 perancang dan Engkaulah yg Maha Berkuasa menentukan setiap sesuatu.........Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin~

5th Syawal~

im officially taken ;)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ABAH :))

Happy Father’s Day!! Hehe..dlu kecik2 byk kali jgk ahh pnah kne rotan ngan abah..dah tu nakal sgt..asyik gado je adik bradik..berebut bende laa..gado ngan ank org len laa..amende ntah lg lupe..byk sgt..hehe..tp dlu best..tiap2 mlm abah wat kn susu dumex panas 1 teko utk kitorg..sedap okey..1 teko tu ckup laa utk kitorg 4 beradik..siap ade yg nk abeskn cpt sbb nk tambah..start tu laa aku suke mnm susu smpai skang J

Hmm dlu pegi skolah mcm2 kenderaan aku naik..basikal laa..nek moto ngan abah laa..nek bas laa..jln kaki pn ade kottt..pnah 1 time tu ujan lebat gle..aku pulak kne nek beskal..then abah dtg bwk moto..tp yg klakar ny aku bkn blk nek moto ngan abah..abah dtg sbb nk bg helmet..soo aku pn nek laa beskal ngan pkai helmet sbb xnk aku kne ujan..comey gle kottt..pastu abah bwk moto ikut blakang aku smpai ke umah..haha klakar kan..

Abah nie jenis xbyk ckp..suke wat sume bende diam2..smpai aku pn de genetic abah nie..heh..abah akn rase sgt bangga ble mane2 ank die dpt result cun2..tp die xkn tunjuk pn yg die happy..standard laa tu..haha..dlu mase aku dpt 5A upsr aku sndri pn xtau nk mntk adiah pe..pastu aku ckp ahh boring kt umah..nk radio..skali dpt radio 1 kot..heh..ble aku msk TKC abah n mak laa plg smgt..every week xpn 2 mggu skali or sebulan skali or ble2 laa msti dtg visit..pastu disebbkn xnk aku gado ngan adk beradik nk tgk tv everytime blk umah abah trus bli 2 astro..bia jgn berebut..hee..dlu aku kalo kuar umah mesti gune public transport..da xreti lesen..so abah laa yg akn anta n amek aku kt komuter..aku tkt nek bas sorg2..sbb aku pnah sesat slh naek bas..then aku trun kt tol sbb tkut sesat lg jauh..pastu abah kol nk ckp ngan org tol tu sbb nk tau aku kt mane sbena ny..pastu abah pn dtg la kt tol tu amek aku..bahahaha that’s y la aku xske nek bas..komuter ke lrt ke erl ke okeyy laa..hee

Abah sgt rajen okeyyy..abah suke mengemas..ble cuti tu nnt 1 umah abah vacuum..aku lom bgn tdo pn abah men msk je blik vacuum carpet..bising kompom laa xleh nk tdo..haha..mase nk g indon dlu aku nk kasut sukan bru..yela satu2 ny kasut yg aku ade time tu is kasut basketball yg aku bli time kt TKC..tp disebbkn abah xnk aku bli bru..ngan pnuh smgt ny abah basuh kn kasut aku tu cun melecun smpai nmpk cm baru..hebat x..padahal nk saving kn..kuang3..lg 1 abah mmg hebat bab tukang2 n wiring nie..so xyah riso..mase pndah msk prisma dlu..abah smgt gle kot gerudi kn dinding blik aku nk paku extension kt dinding sume..pastu dua2 abah n mak mmg smgt nk tlg ubah feng shui blik supaya nmpk besar n selesa..thats y laa aku suke tukar2 arrangement blik aku..bia nmpk besar n selesa..hee ;p

Okeyy panjang ny aku merepek..byk okeyyy kalo nk cte sepanjang 23 thn nie..so sket2 da laa..hee..lastly HAPPY FATHERS DAY TO EN AZMI BIN ALANG AHMAD..u are my one n only dad I ever had..da best in da universe..semoga abah sihat selalu..murah rezeki..bahagia dunia akhirat & sentiasa mendapat rahmat ALLA swt..love u abah <3

Just update :)

ALHAMDULILLAH~ first of all mmg aku sgt bersyukur sbb aku finally n officially a 4th year medical student..aku da cte kn yg aku fail 2 posting b4 this..jkm n surgery..so time org len cuti 2 bulan aku lak kne reseat blk 2 posting tu..agak membebankn n sgt pressure..bkn sbb susah ke ape..tp sbb dlm pale aku xpnah ilang pkir psl "kalo fail lg means xleh nek thn"..huhu

FORTUNATELY i gain sooo many things during my reseat time..seriously..b4 this mase posting jkm mmg aku xenjoy lgsg..sbb aku xmnat! so ble nk exam pn aku revise cmtu2 je..tp ble reseat nie bru aku phm byk bende..bru aku tau cmne nk bce nota2 yg terbengkalai tu..hahaha..biase la aku kalo da xmnat tu mmg xmnat btol..so time reseat nie mmg aku berusaha bkn utk minat tp cukup la sekadar x mengabaikn posting nie..hee..hasilny time exam aku leh laa jwb soklan2 tu n ade la idea nk menggoreng sedap2..haha..then surgery mmg best!! aku mmg ske surgery sbena ny..tp aku kne reseat sbb time theory sumthing happened ngan pale otak aku nie n aku get confused in almost all the emi questions..then tmbah lak ngan ade few topics yg aku x cover soo terima la padah ny ye..haha padan muka!! tp time exam reseat for surgery aritu mmg aku enjoy sgt jwb soklan..everything seems so simple..rase sng je..ooops bkn nk blagak or bangga dri ekh..it jz to show how different i felt after jwb exam time reseat nie compare to time exam first dlu tu..mmg lain..kalo dlu mmg serabut n sedar betapa byk ny soklan yg aku xtau..but now i relieved..kuar tmpt exam senyum jerrr..hehe

Alhamdulillah everything goes well..aku LULUS n eligible to continue my study as a 4th year medical student..thank you ALLAH for answering my prayers~ tapiii pd mase same aku sgt sedey n terkilan sbb aku xleh share perasaan nie ngan beberapa kwn aku yg xbrjaya nek thn..rase ralat sgt..aku tau diorg sume da berusaha..tapi ALLAH maha tahu..mungkin DIA ade rancangan yg lbh baik utk diorg sume..mungkin aku xbtol2 phm pe yg diorg rase sbb aku xberada ditmpt diorg so pe yg mampu aku wat is doakn diorg supaya diorg sume kuat semangat n leh terus berusaha wat yg terbaik..sayang korg sume~

hmm 6/6 nie da start life bru..my fes posting is psychiatry..will follow by triad >> peads >> ortho..hve no idea at all nk start kt mane..so aku amek keputusan utk rehatkn dri sepuas2 ny dlu supaya nnt aku lbh fresh n bersmangat..ive learn a lesson from my previous year..i wont let this happen again..kalo ko sendri usaha xbyk jgn harap nk mntk byk2 dri ALLAH..so sile amik pengajaran..nothing is easy in this world..no pain no gain..result ko kt indon dlu tu xde mende pn!! repeat..it is NOTHING!!! learn not only to pass the exam but to be a safe doctor in the future..bare in mind ye chiechie!

okeyy ckup la membebel mlm2 nie..smbg nnt2 pulak..adios amigos~

~Happy Birthday to You~

22 April 2011 – arinie bday die..u know who u are J die nie sgt special dlm idup aku..kitorg fes time jmpe lebey kurang 4 thn dlu..then many things happened and we suddenly been together..yes I use the word suddenly..sbb mase awal2 aku jmpe die dlu aku xpnh trpikir pn yg kitorg akn end up mcm nie..yela soal idup mati jodoh pertermuan kn sume ALLAH je yg tau..aku xpnh cari apetah lg mengejar cinta..i just leave it to ALLAH..n im glad ALLAH send him to me..the way we started our journey seriously xromantic lgsg..not a love story yg mane2 couple impikan pn..mntk dijauhkn lg adela..haha..but it happened! Cinta sejati xmudah utk dimiliki kn..a lot of trust n a bunch of sacrifice needed..we just go with the flow and Alhamdulillah we made it until today <3

Okeyy lets talk about bday boy pulak..hehe..die sorg hamba ALLAH yg baik..sorg ank yg soleh..sorg adik n abg yg brtgjwb..sorg kwn yg pemurah n sorg kekasih hati yg sgt memahami plus romantic!!! Again im really glad we met..almost 3 yrs nie da terlalu byk yg die buat utk aku..aku sndri pn belum tentu akn buat ape yg die buat..antara ny he always plan sumthing great on my bday..snggup dtg from johor to celebrate..bli kek byk2 sbb aku ske mkn kek..bli adiah yg aku ske gle2..n mcm2 lg..thank you sooo much! hehehe..die snggup bwk aku merata2 semata2 nk memenuhi nafsu mkn aku yg melampau tiap2 kali tension..sggup tmn aku on call mlm2 even tho aku tau msti ade org pkir *xyah la smpai on call pn nk tmn jgk* but that’s the way he shows his support n care..die bkn jenis yg sng nk ckp ‘I love u’..die mmg xpndai nk express sume tu dri kate2 so die tunjukkn dgn perbuatan..dlu aku ske suro die nyanyi utk aku tp of course laa die xnk..haha..but then lately die suke la jgk nyanyi by phone..tp yg sengal ny aku lak yg xnk dgr..sbb die ske nyanyi main2..so dri sdp trus jd xsdp tau..huhu..kalo gado pulak die ske pujuk aku mcm pjuk bdk2..die akn bli kn pape je yg aku ske..plg slalu mstila kek! Hehe..lain2 cm kenny rogers ke..durian ke purse ke papejela bende yg aku plg ngidam waktu tu..then die dtg umah bunyikan loceng n tgglkn pe yg die nk bg kt luar..bkk pntu ade bende yg ko ske!! Kn best tu..so slalu ny kalo die wat cmtu msti aku ilang mrh trus..sbb perut aku kenyang kot..hahaha..byk lg perkara2 menarik n menyentuh hati yg die pnah wat tp xlarat la plak nk tls kt cni kn..ade 1 prkara yg aku sgt2 terharu is ble die bce kn doa or ayat al-Quran by phone time aku tgh sedih yg melampau..dgr suara die bace mmg tersentuh beb..meleleh air mate..sejuk rase hati..waktu tu mmg aku sgt2 berterima kasih pd Tuhan sbb hantar die utk aku..thank you ALLAH J waktu lain yg die ske bce kn doa is b4 tdo..tp lately nie da jarang da sbb die slalu TERtdo dlu..pnat la katekn clinical yr nie..xpela org bce sndri ekh..hee

For ur bday today…org doakan die panjang umur..murah rezeki..n dapat capai sume cita2 die..semoga urusan die dipermudahkn n dimurahkan rezeki oleh ALLAH s.w.t…teruskan jd insan yg berguna n bermakna utk org sekeliling..semoga jd hamba yg mulia disisi ALLAH n sentisa mndapat rahmat-NYA..hopefully ALLAH dgr doa2 kte n makbulkn hajat2 kte..aminnn

I love you…always n forever…insyaALLAH

"i am okey"

i thought i will be just fine but no i am not!!
why? why me?? i am totally not okeyy!
all the smiles..the laughter..the word saying 'aku okey'
it is all fake!
my heart burning inside
my eyes cant stop crying
my mind always thinking

urghhhhh i cant take this dear ALLAH
astaghfirullahalazim~
tabahkn hati..kuatkan semangat